My relapse looks strange to me. The thing is; I quit going to Protestant and even Catholic Churches numerous times across my almost 60 years.

I knew instinctively I was and am a Pagan, and I don’t know how I knew that. However, after a long search among philosophers (most of whom are Protestant leaning)—I settled for Rudolf Steiner. He was the first one I had encountered and every time I read his work as I was transforming over and over as a spiritualist, I knew I was understood.

But the other side of this life journey’s twists and turns called Cara Coffey of the Ministry of Uncovered No More is a woman who has suffered defeat after defeat in the way of relationships.

Sigh.

My relapse put me in a place where I put a stupid rule on myself again because quite frankly that’s what Protestant-isms do to anyone; put rules on us. And let’s face it, those rules are primarily on women and children.

And let’s face it a lot of pastors etc have engaged in monetary and sexual sin. And let’s face it so many men are wicked in pedophilia it’s like this.

IF you know the Lord Jesus Christ in another Body Form is on the Earth today, and I’m guessing I do—and you may also perceive that event but not like the songs of Larry Norman depict those events—

And if you couldn’t care less, that is normal and not sin. But And you may not even be religious and as sin conscious as religious people are.

I’m none of that two paragraphs above, honestly. I cannot “not care” and I miss my relationships every day. I have had to time and again give up relationships that were not good for me or the other person.

I am just saying, but if you grew the person inside your body, it is a harder part of the journey to not feel like a failure and not tear into them at the same time as you get used to the fact that you lost the relationship. No fault divorce don’t hold a candle to no fault losing my relationships with people I grew in my body—I’m not divorced though and I don’t judge you if you have been and that is mighty painful as well.

I am NOT going to confine my Paganism to the Eight Celebrations. I relapsed into religious zones of comfort to have decided this thing last week because I don’t know why. I simply felt alone too much and decided to tell myself what to do.

I think though, converting to Wiccan Religion was too much for me as I am headed for 60. I need to go back to simply being Eclectic Pagan. And with that, if I use oracle, etc, I will yet again sign #SorceressTara.

I enjoy my Wiccan books. I will use them. But I am so tired of everyone not listening to Pagans and Wiccans about the Goddess that I need to back away from ALL religion for the rest of my life and let it go.