i want to pontificate about the difference among “recluse” and someone like me, training myself to go into “seclusion” – Goddess Damn by Cara Ann BC

This is not a part two for the article I wrote earlier, linked above. It is an extension of my thoughts about this new world I am entering into after the 59 other years I have lived.

I think I need to face it: I’m living in the worst of times for a stay-at-home person helping everyone else and myself. I think I need to face it I am too dumb for this day and age.

Okay I faced it. Moving on……

I need to have independence in what I can have it to be doing various things in my home of my free will. And when you have chronic pain issues, that means first of all, I independently need to keep exercising. If you haven’t hired chiropractors and physical therapists, then you may not know what I’m talking about financially.

If I keep moving, I stay healthy and I keep my primary physician busy measuring my scoliosis and accomplishing breast exam visits, etc. to do my part in keeping up with my body’s needs.

I am grateful we have health insurance.

And I need to accomplish both aerobic and stretching exercises each day. Meditation, invocation, gardening, and eating healthy are also mental health requirements for me daily. None of that has changed over the years. I am grateful for what hasn’t changed over the years, and I am grateful I have everything I need/want to accomplish these necessities for my mental and physical health.

My inclusivity is how I need to connect with people. I’m not someone who does well going days and weeks without having nice conversations (not on the phone) with people.

Devices may go fuck themselves here. (smile)

I colored my feature image. This thing I do for my work is one of my expressions of mental health as an author, poet, artistic type, and sorceress–I sell nothing.

Inclusivity……being kind. That’s it.

I’ve had both independence and inclusivity today given and received. It is more blessed to give than to receive. I am listening to Bible Wisdom to make sure I keep the giving/receiving structure in my day to day life.

I was just telling my partner how I needed to pare down the work I was doing. Today, I’m on carpets and one bathroom floor, I’m taking care of three animals, and I have dinner planned out in accordance with both of us as partners which also includes things the others here can eat if they so choose.

For my late lunch after I vacuum, I have grapes and cheese to tide me over. After COVID twice, I couldn’t lose weight. That item has shifted but I cannot follow any diet/exercise rules because I have done that all my life and it was a part of the cult lifestyles I’ve been required to maintain.

I can’t do things from my past cult life. I’m not going to explain that but there it is.

blank stare.