I want to say; that I am very tired, distraught, and broken where sexuality is concerned.

It is automatically assumed that if you are a professing Pagan, you are dirty sexually—meaning very loose. That is a good thing most everywhere.

Then there is the Religious Paradigm with all their rules, regulations, and Bible Thumping hypocrisy.

I no longer ascribe to either/or of this constant badgering of my intellect about sexuality. I used to say, and still do sometimes when I’m discussing something that people don’t understand the sexual implications surrounding—I hate sex.

Now let me go to the heaven of “there is neither male or female in Christ” from Galatians Chapter 3.

Sexuality is beautiful IF we want it to be. And I seriously doubt anyone I know has been able to be heard about the boundaries, or lack of them, that they want or need—depending on socio-economic-religious upbringing, past history, and modern (the now) evolution. I think and hope that all good people soften in their perspectives over the years, but watching the news shows me we have not evolved publicly which shows me we haven’t evolved privately either.

1. I think Open Marriage is fine as long as both parties understand the one man one woman/one same sex partner rule particularly if children are being born or adopted in these families.

2. Safe sex everywhere among adults. And I think men should get snipped way more often.

3. I think the fact that women have to stuff themselves with chemicals to be child-free is a crime against women.

4. I think expecting too much of men and demoralizing them if they are poor or the wrong skin color is a crime against men.

5. The Heterosexual Couple that are monogamous until a divorce should be respected. There should be no sexual or conduct talk of submission. Partnering in all aspects of the relationship is the best way, and it is nobody’s business otherwise is the best way, but I think many words are being misused surrounding family.

What I hope for will never exist. However, let me close with a quote from TS Eliot’s Four Quartets that has finally set me free to be able to write all of the above as simple opinions after a lifetime of at least trying.

From “I” of Burnt Norton:

“If all time is eternally present

All time is unredeemable…..

“Go, go, go, said the bird: human kind

Cannot bear very much reality.

Time past and time future

What might have been and what has been

Point to one end, which is always present.”

I have finally accepted that all time is unredeemable. And I went across all strict dogma I was taught, and trusted, and lived; to stand with TS Eliot on this One Way. Time is unredeemable.

I would have never thought through this thing about “time” being only a strict, close-minded Christian Woman.

Nobody listens to me anyway from that world or from the world of The WasteLand by TS Eliot which is post-religion worldwide.

It’s why I always keep TS Eliot with me. He is correct with the Lord’s Parables in the Gospel Record.

Amen among my father’s lamp and the incense, the candle is showing you a small V—it is telling you, this is Cara—a Girl who knows there are mysteries and she is coming to where she is moving past her fears, the terrors of death past and death to come—and smiling a little bit more today.

…..than I have in a very long time. Whomever did to me what was done to me made sure that CPS was called on me in this House of mine also.

And I am still terrified. I am still terrified. But I am trying.

To love again.

Without fear.

To place past hate.

Within spheres.

To be contained.

Without leers.

To love this Girl.

Within I hear.

Me.